When I used to come online on ym you were the first person I would jump to talk to. We used to talk and talk for hours and hours till the morning till when we felt like it was enough but even when we felt tired we still didn't want to leave but we knew we had to. I couldn't wait for the next day for the night to come once again so that I could talk to you once again, when we talked I felt so special so close to you. I could tell you anything knowing you cared. You were my special best-friend. But I knew that I was slowly falling for you. Then we slowly started to like each other. Their wouldn't have been a day when we never used to talk. I wouldn't know were I would be if I couldn't talk to her. She is something so special..im hoping that we can always be like this and no end..because now u are part of my life..my nymph Azelia David..

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..Forgive, But never forget,
Love, And never regret,
The one, Is the one,
you will never forget,
And will make you never, Want to regret....

my hope..!!

When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,. one day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

in light lost
here retaliation for each world act

in sad there is hope yet
exited in lost light
there outside there, life so pleasant

there is hope yet
still also be consideration
hope for the best from judgement

not this what i want
full life's journey, BLACK STORY
not this what i want
In memory smudge touching

I still want continue living
happily not become sin hunt
lost the light
grab to awareness
no human strength
God proprietor all

opposite lost light
I look hopeful
although hold all sentence
drag joy

lost the light
"let be experience"
"let be freedom"

10hb July 2007
EXITED FROM CELL
Broth_Mashima
thanks to Shahzul

Today~

Today, the leaves were greener
Today, the sky wasn’t grey
Today, the sun was brighter
Yes, it changed today

Today, people transformed
Today, they weren’t rude
Today, I felt loved
All just today, it’s true

Today, I lived for today
Today, was not for the future
Today, was a great day
Not menial, tiring, brutal

Today, I laughed in silence
Today didn’t make me cry
Today, everything became clearer
But, today, I couldn’t figure out why

And today, if everything changed
And today, if it wasn’t a dream
I don’t know what happened
But today will become everyday, it seems.

LoVE~

Love?... love is so hard to understand...for me.. at the moment i had a love..i thought i dont need Love...until i meet someone............hmmmmm..."..for the first time i feel my life filled with various... i do so many kind of trick to steal her heart...beginning from admire then become friend....bestFriend...and finally she accept to be my NymPh in My Life......Only happiness appear a whole day...how i really appreciate the relationship..... we date almost everyday and talking about family, own personality and Love.....even if busy with my school homework..... i still spend my time with her....only want to feel how beautiful the moment spend together to share something.... when together....everything is valueable...but my mind was so shallow at that time...everything started must be over...no matter it is good or bad...however the relationship end...its always brings a hope to both of us...we hope we will be together at the future....because... that time my family have a conflict... then make me stress.. it's affect our relationship...she's heart hurt because of me...and my angel... she's made a decision... because of my mistake...everything is over....is over... like game over...and counter terrorist win.....".......when i think twice... i think i was so emotional...EGO...and selfish... no matter what happen... the memory makes me sad and suffer....but.. no matter what happen... i had to accept it...because i don't have any choice..that's the best choice i have...hmm... almost 3 years already past..if i can turn back the time....but i never stop to think about you..my heart still hurt bcause i already break her heart.....maybe it's the ending of my love story... for me.. true love not only should to be together... she's happiness is the greatest present for me...even all the things make me sick...but, it is the best.. we can't turn back the time...history can be change..i don't know why i write this all...maybe i'm so emotional... but this is what live inside deep in my heart....................

FaMiLy....

fAmily is part of mY liFe..for mE...parents are everything...my Parents are da best person who take care of me until i grew up. without them, i'll not appear in this world. although i don't have much time to live together with my mother.. my father become a HERO...he is father.. but at the same time he is a mother for me..although i am a orphan..i'm lucky coz fortunately i have a father who never feel tired to take care of my family..now, i am 19 years old... and i wanna said that my father love never less....my father was very justice to us..my family was a pole in my life.. when the pole stood tough.. it's show that how harmony the family..but.. nothing is perfect... sometimes the pole will shake... but i always hope that the pole will never fall down................